- New year huh? Not for me. Still in '09 mode. Haven't quite gotten a crystal clear vision of the first step to take into the new dispensation. HOWEVER, I just had one really solid thought about where my frustrations stem from:
Most of what I read is not in any way relevant to what I do! My vocation and hobby(s) don't have as much as they should in common! At last I've articulated it. Punched it right in the nose. What's the point of endlessly educating myself on culture, education, photography, cinema, etc. if it only ends up as interesting conversation? How incomplete! That stuff needs to be put into practice. Study and apply: the best way to educate. So the dilemma now is where to begin. My strongest urge is to begin with photography (which seems simpler to elbow my way into). I must get me some leads pronto. As in this week...nil procrastination.
- Is this the end of 'pure' eye-tee for me, for good?
- The woman: she definitely isn't in my sights yet. One radical, the rest all potential...somethings. But certainly not permanent housemates. Not until further scrutiny. I'm putting that one on ice for a while.
Monday, 18 January 2010
Saturday, 20 June 2009
Cisco and beyond
- It is finally here: the Cisco era. I attend a class at least 4 times a week and boy/girl, is it fun! I get the feeling the proffesseur is pushing the envelope and teaching more that the scope of the curriculum, but that can't hurt me can it?
- John Taylor Gatto still make SO much sense to me. Going through some mp3's of his speeches right now. I urge one and all to search the net for his material. It's good, deep stuff to chew on in one's free time. It sure beats watching endless series (24, Heroes...), the empty voyeurism of facebook etc.
- Finally met up (socially) with my telephone friend. She's not half bad actually (nice, firm figure, ahem.) Uses the word 'bastard' a bit too freely for my comfort but she's not as wild as I had feared either, considering her age. Where will this liason end I wonder? I sense a landmine of sorts. Nice and quiet on the outside but when you set foot on it..BOOM! You lose that foot. Careful.
- I'm off for an intervention in a bit. Almost called it 'charity work' but that would have de-personalised it. It's not one of those Corporate Social Responsibility things, its a couple of friends in trouble that another friend and I are trying to sort out. More on this later.
- The immediate future looks sizzling, I can hardly wait for every next happening to happen. The coming week should be a thriller of an episode. Watch this space, I'll probably be itching to catalogue it. 'Till then, I bid y'all farewell.
- John Taylor Gatto still make SO much sense to me. Going through some mp3's of his speeches right now. I urge one and all to search the net for his material. It's good, deep stuff to chew on in one's free time. It sure beats watching endless series (24, Heroes...), the empty voyeurism of facebook etc.
- Finally met up (socially) with my telephone friend. She's not half bad actually (nice, firm figure, ahem.) Uses the word 'bastard' a bit too freely for my comfort but she's not as wild as I had feared either, considering her age. Where will this liason end I wonder? I sense a landmine of sorts. Nice and quiet on the outside but when you set foot on it..BOOM! You lose that foot. Careful.
- I'm off for an intervention in a bit. Almost called it 'charity work' but that would have de-personalised it. It's not one of those Corporate Social Responsibility things, its a couple of friends in trouble that another friend and I are trying to sort out. More on this later.
- The immediate future looks sizzling, I can hardly wait for every next happening to happen. The coming week should be a thriller of an episode. Watch this space, I'll probably be itching to catalogue it. 'Till then, I bid y'all farewell.
Tuesday, 10 February 2009
'09 - Rambling commentary...
- Can't remember a more peaceful transition into a new year. Guess it's because of the contrast with what last year was like. Can't say there's much to complain about.
One blip in the radar though: the addition to the cubicle is M.I.A. Not A.W.O.L. though. That's the official story from H.Q. Strange happenings here. All rumor, not enough fact. Well, live and let live; it's the only way for now.
- New kid on the block: wonderful personality! Great, soothing contrast to previous occupants. Had almost resigned myself to a life of forbearance and longsuffering. Thank You for the respite.
- Amorous thoughts have been on my mind lately. Rather strong ones. Could it be TIME? I hope so. Need to move to the next level and stop thinking of and caring for self alone.
Question: Where to find a kind lass with what it takes?
Answer: She can't be found. Can only be delivered. Wish I knew how to track the parcel... how far is it?
(What would change if I knew?)
Question: Do I have what it takes?
(Quick)Answer: Clearly, I've still got some character formation to complete. No doubt.
One blip in the radar though: the addition to the cubicle is M.I.A. Not A.W.O.L. though. That's the official story from H.Q. Strange happenings here. All rumor, not enough fact. Well, live and let live; it's the only way for now.
- New kid on the block: wonderful personality! Great, soothing contrast to previous occupants. Had almost resigned myself to a life of forbearance and longsuffering. Thank You for the respite.
- Amorous thoughts have been on my mind lately. Rather strong ones. Could it be TIME? I hope so. Need to move to the next level and stop thinking of and caring for self alone.
Question: Where to find a kind lass with what it takes?
Answer: She can't be found. Can only be delivered. Wish I knew how to track the parcel... how far is it?
(What would change if I knew?)
Question: Do I have what it takes?
(Quick)Answer: Clearly, I've still got some character formation to complete. No doubt.
Tuesday, 21 October 2008
I finally caught TB
Oct 17: 5.46 a.m.
What am I doing awake at this ungodly hour? At the office? Surely there are better ways of getting a promotion... That's not what it's about. We at NCLR are off for Team Building! Somewhere out in the bush (Malewa, Gilgil.) Last time I got left behind; wasn't a part of the family yet. This time I HAVE to go or have a very plausible explanation as to why not.
(I'm not too enthusiastic about the whole affair, if I may confess. I'll have reason to be relieved I went later on.)
What am I doing awake at this ungodly hour? At the office? Surely there are better ways of getting a promotion... That's not what it's about. We at NCLR are off for Team Building! Somewhere out in the bush (Malewa, Gilgil.) Last time I got left behind; wasn't a part of the family yet. This time I HAVE to go or have a very plausible explanation as to why not.
(I'm not too enthusiastic about the whole affair, if I may confess. I'll have reason to be relieved I went later on.)
Monday, 6 October 2008
New beginning
7.30 a.m - Arrival at office. New addition to the 'Cubicle'. Through some intelligence thought it would be a rough day. Quite the opposite. Morning passes without incident.
2.30 p.m. Peace still reigns. Not quite sure how. Stranger has been fitting into new shoes all day. Must admit, not a bad show. Wonder whether the calm will last. I'll certainly work to make sure it does.
6.25 p.m. Contemplating the future. With new 8 to 5 arrangement, whither the room for extra-curricular? Whatever shall be my vocational fate? Need lots of consultation on that one. As end of'40 days' approaches, answer should be forthcoming. It now is beginning to make sense.
What have I to fear? After all I've achieved...uncertified...? Nothing but DOUBT must I fear. THAT is the monster to be slain at the soonest. With him vanquished nothing shall obstruct my progress.
Motto for the coming period: He who brought me this far shall take me further still.
2.30 p.m. Peace still reigns. Not quite sure how. Stranger has been fitting into new shoes all day. Must admit, not a bad show. Wonder whether the calm will last. I'll certainly work to make sure it does.
6.25 p.m. Contemplating the future. With new 8 to 5 arrangement, whither the room for extra-curricular? Whatever shall be my vocational fate? Need lots of consultation on that one. As end of
What have I to fear? After all I've achieved...uncertified...? Nothing but DOUBT must I fear. THAT is the monster to be slain at the soonest. With him vanquished nothing shall obstruct my progress.
Motto for the coming period: He who brought me this far shall take me further still.
Monday, 21 July 2008
Adult angst
Who said only teens suffer angst? I have gnashed all day in the nightmare of anxiety and self doubt! What a way to live.
And I thought I was over that stuff. Seems like so long as I'm alive there'll always be something to trip me up, JUST when everything was going so well.
Good thing is, nowadays it's short-lived. Otherwise I'd have gone out of my mind ages ago.
Oh, bother!
(Btw, the picture on the right, called "The Scream" captures this feeling quite nicely, je pense.)
Thursday, 1 May 2008
Social-lifeless
I have no social life. It's official.
It's 6 p.m. on LABOUR DAY and I'm at the office. How holiday is that? Not that I'm working. I had planned to work on my website (I just viewed it and feeling uninspired, ditched that plan.) Happily I haven't been idly twiddling my thumbs; a pdf classic by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle has been keeping me busy. Quite something these classic books.
When I retire (hopefully in 10 years) I'll write some books which will hopefully become classics and be read for generations to come....yeah right!
It's 6 p.m. on LABOUR DAY and I'm at the office. How holiday is that? Not that I'm working. I had planned to work on my website (I just viewed it and feeling uninspired, ditched that plan.) Happily I haven't been idly twiddling my thumbs; a pdf classic by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle has been keeping me busy. Quite something these classic books.
When I retire (hopefully in 10 years) I'll write some books which will hopefully become classics and be read for generations to come....yeah right!
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